Had a bit of a revealing thought this morning as I'm getting ready for work (and my big presentation, which turned out just fine, tyvm). There I am, trying to figure out exactly how to tame my rain-inspired Chaka Khan hair (ponytail? barrettes? bun? footloose-and-fancy-free?), still dressed in only a skirt and bra and all of a sudden I get a flash - yes, indeed, for the moment, I am content. Perhaps it's because I'd had my Special K this morning or because I knew exactly what I was going to wear. Maybe it was because I was feeling confident about the presentation. I don't know what it was, but it felt good. And then, as I'm heading out the door (hair in barrettes), coat in one hand keys in the other, I get it again. Most definitely: content.
It's been a while since I've felt this. The last time I remember it happening was quite some time ago. Sure I've been happy since - dozens of times! - but this sense of home has been fleeting. I guess home is that feeling that everything is as it should be. You know? You feel a comfort in your skin, in your keys, in your knee-high boots. And, today, it showed. I got all sorts of compliments on my outfit (not a stitch of "new"), my wit, my assuredness.
Ahh, but all is fleeting. Sure, I was content, but when will I be satisfied? I suppose "never" is a viable answer. I mean, imagine if I were always satisfied - I'd become an inert lump in my own life! So, I suppose it's only natural that this, too, shall pass. That, even after a fabulously delicious meal that leaves me full... well, I'm still going to be hungry at some point the next day. I guess I just enjoy the moment as much as possible, relish each bite and savour each swallow, commit the sensations to memory so I can call on them when pickings get a little slim, as they sometimes do.
It felt good, today. Really good. Full-to-the-brim good. Yum.
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